I have noticed as of lately in my little part of this dreamers world that many and yes there have been many experiences that have popped up. Experiences in a way that I thought I had put away in the back of the linen closet and never to see the light of day. Yes I am waxing eloquent as is my want and just for today.
Let me enlighten you and make this story oh so much clearer for the reader, you.
I am in the drivers seat and wanting to park along side the curb but unable to do so as a truck is coming out the parking lot and has his nose out there and I look at the driver and he is gesticulating wildly at moi. You see I had the right of way but obviously not going at a faster rate of speed for this man. It was funny to watch as he mouthed naughty words my way. I on the other hand was pretty darn calm. Now before I would have been actively participating in this dance but not today, actually now it was going to be never, I felt. It was a choice and I felt no need to be out of control. It felt liberating on my end. In that same week I had comments thrown my way which normally would have crushed me but now I gave it no consideration. All this in one week. Whereas a few years back I would have dramatically phoned one of my best friends and cried on her shoulder but now handling it all on my own.
Today visiting someone whose opinion mattered to me slung a low handed remark about me. I gave it no matter. As I talked out loud to the universe saying that he lived in the past where it concerned me, where he didn’t really know me at all so why should it concern me at all. There was no basis to his thought pattern. It was like fluff you find on your sweater and blow out to the air. My growth is amazing to see and I wonder what will come next. What type of challenges that I will face that I stuck in the back of the closet as I have forgotten.
I also know that I am making room for better things to come and so I wait in anticipation like a little girl at Christmas time, excited for something but not knowing what, but knowing it will be indeed, brilliant!