Massive changes within the family dynamic and it is the accepting part that was worked on in my inner psyche. Grabbed that courage deep down in the belly and brought it up to the heart and staying on course. True North. Our matriarch has been diagnosed with dementia last year and our family has stepped up to the plate and supported each other. Mom has diminished to a slight version of herself but it has been learning for all of us from day 1. My first clue was 4 years previous when she called me a different name and then on a later call days later to say she only had one daughter. There are two of us. I let this episode sink in. November proved to be trying month with admission to a elders lodge as we all let go of the fact that we could no longer give her the care she needed. As the residence is on lockdown due to covid we are able to spend time with her by taking her for drives through the countryside. Our newest past time is singing. She remembers the words to some songs. She is still able to read and announces the town we are entering. It is these moments that I am grateful. For today it is all about the mindfulness and drinking in every memory and snapping images of her precious smile. But to say to her, “I love you Nikâwiy” and she replies: “I love you Nitânis” is gold to me. Cree:”nikâwiy” for mother, nitânis for daughter.
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Gail, I’m so sorry you’re going through this – I know how you feel because I’m literally in this situation too with my mom. I just take it day by day but it’s super hard since I’m states away from where she lives. I’ve slowed way down with my business and social media (just one MeWe) because I want to enjoy life and be in the present moment. Somehow all those other things don’t seem so important when the family dynamics change. Feel free to contact me if you’d like to chat. It’s good to hear from you again!
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Thank you my friend! Good to hear from you. I totally get the things that are important and for me it is truly the love of my family. I am in awe of the support system we got going over here. One day at a time. Huge hugs!